Tuesday 29 December 2015

Vlog CD





Yeah, I had one academic say to me, "I'm just a fun intellectual, who doesn't take it seriously", and then when I didn't offer a similar comment about myself, she broke off communication. So I surmised that the covert narc. had spread that idea. I also know how it came about. I was attacking the common Western Don Quixote complex of charging at me and proclaiming they were charging at "fascism". My self-proclamation, within this context, "I must be a fascist", was not serious. And I'd said so, for clarification purposes.


Monday 28 December 2015

Philosophy of Ubuntu, The Father Daughter War

Vlog CCCXCIX





As for 27:30, sure I will make it very "funny" for the narc to see how I react, because I can react very effectively to trouble. What people do not realize is that I was brought up by a feral father who had been brutalized by a real war and I have learned to survive. Therefore, people who mess with me learn a little bit about the extent of my survival skills

Vlog CCCXCIX





You know. one of the things you and I have in common is that "joking around with the boys". Ok, there was this one guy (but this has likely happened to me more than once, and perhaps it has been the most common way I've inadvertently provoked covert narcs)....this one guy began to show contempt for the details of my life. So I thought, "Ok, That's fine to take our collective toughness up another level, because that's where I spend most of my waking hours in any case, in stoicism land." But I think I was supposed to feel the contempt in isolation and not make it into a socially shared motif of toughness, as I did. I think this is where things began to look as though they were going wrong in a lot of my relationships with covert narcs.
Also the humor aspect, which is in the same vein as the toughness motif -- they tend to think you are publicly shaming them, rather than engaging in some give-and-take. I think this may have produced a turning point whereby a lot of narcs went to war against me.

Sunday 27 December 2015

Intellect: dogmatism, conscience and the force of will.





Question in regard to Modernity. In your expierence where and how far does modernity expand? For example modernity is present in Australia and Britain but is significantly less present in Eastern Europe. Does that make sense? Or am I talking jibberish?

Good video by the way.
+Antistar211 I think we really can understand Western modernity, at least in my sense of it, as the mentality of the bourgeois revolutionaries. Having said that, I am not sure how far it has spread, only what it looks like and what it feels like to be on the inside of it (or more aptly on the outside, trying to get onto the inside of it, to make sense of it).
Modernity expands wherever there is the modern attitude that "we" have won BECAUSE we are not strong, but BECAUSE "we" hold a system of values that is self-policing and involves the policing of others whenever they seem to put on airs or appear to be strong. That is the attitude of modernity, because it revolves around an absence of aristocratic values, rather than inscribing positive values of its own. And its facade of strength is maintained through self-policing.
In a context where strength (belief in oneself) is not seen as the definitive enemy, we have not yet entered modernity. There is, though, the phony belief in oneself and put-on mannerism of the American type, who is really a salesperson, even if by outward appearance a movie star or politician.
And there is Eastern Europe, which also seems very modern in many regards, although I haven't been there and am not sure about it.

Intellect: dogmatism, conscience and the force of will.

Saturday 26 December 2015

Vlog CCCXCVII - YouTube

Vlog CCCXCVII - YouTube: "  They are morons and mystifiers of simple cause and effect relationships. It ought never to be so hard. It's like I've said, if someone were in a severe accident due to being hit by a car from behind, you would not expect the doctors in the emergency department to make a diagnosis that the casualty is "susceptible to pain". But this is what these lunatics do, and we are supposed to admire them for their severe ineptitude? If it were not so horrific, it would be laughable."



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Tuesday 22 December 2015

Standing up to the bully: does it make one into a bully, oneself? - YouTube

Standing up to the bully: does it make one into a bully, oneself? - YouTube:



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Standing up to the bully: does it make one into a bully, oneself?





S Fleurette 6 hours ago (edited)

I suppose it depends what "standing up" entails. Clearly absolute pacifism is a kind of madness, if not mere cowardliness ( itself an ignoble trait to the ancients but deeply misunderstood by modern people). Life is perpetual struggle all the time  , right down to the cellular level. If your immune system was to suddenly stop fighting , you'd become gravely ill very soon. Life fights to perpetuate and maintain itself constantly, yet many people seem to believe the nature of life is peaceful or ought to be.

There's an unconscious  fear that  in using aggression repeatedly , regardless how noble  the ultimate  purposes, one may develop a taste for sadistic pleasure.  It is the case that when we repeat behaviors we can create alterations in neurological thresholds and hence behavioral changes ensue. The brain is so malleable but once it makes certain neuronal pathways well utilized , they become difficult to reroute (and entropic irreversibility is always looming).All manner of things can become pleasurable or addictive.

I think it takes a certain kind of discipline and insightful awareness of what thresholds not to cross. It reminds me of the samurai code or aspects of martial arts where getting angry and emotional when carrying out aggressive maneuvers is seen as dangerous and undesirable. Perhaps there's an intrinsic understanding that if one is in an angry or emotional state it can foster addiction to those states, then you've crossed the line into becoming the thing you are fighting.

Interestingly that could also be misinterpreted as being cold-blooded and calculated, which in the west is seen as much worse than  impulsive aggression. It's okay to practice self-defense in angry uncontrollable outbursts but don't dare be controlled and disciplined about it.

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+S Fleurette Yes--interesting.  That complete fear and antagonism toward that which is controlled and disciplined, as if it smelt of inauthenticity and a dangerous capacity for efficacy.  I do come from a more ancient regime, so I do not experience this moderner's sensibility as my own.  I find the impulsive rage that moderners sometimes exhibit, (usually after they have failed to communicate effectively what they want from you, and so you haven't read their minds), to be disgusting to the extreme.

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Standing up to the bully: does it make one into a bully, oneself? - YouTube

Standing up to the bully: does it make one into a bully, oneself? - YouTube







S Fleurette 6 hours ago (edited)

I suppose it depends what "standing up" entails. Clearly absolute pacifism is a kind of madness, if not mere cowardliness ( itself an ignoble trait to the ancients but deeply misunderstood by modern people). Life is perpetual struggle all the time  , right down to the cellular level. If your immune system was to suddenly stop fighting , you'd become gravely ill very soon. Life fights to perpetuate and maintain itself constantly, yet many people seem to believe the nature of life is peaceful or ought to be.

There's an unconscious  fear that  in using aggression repeatedly , regardless how noble  the ultimate  purposes, one may develop a taste for sadistic pleasure.  It is the case that when we repeat behaviors we can create alterations in neurological thresholds and hence behavioral changes ensue. The brain is so malleable but once it makes certain neuronal pathways well utilized , they become difficult to reroute (and entropic irreversibility is always looming).All manner of things can become pleasurable or addictive.

I think it takes a certain kind of discipline and insightful awareness of what thresholds not to cross. It reminds me of the samurai code or aspects of martial arts where getting angry and emotional when carrying out aggressive maneuvers is seen as dangerous and undesirable. Perhaps there's an intrinsic understanding that if one is in an angry or emotional state it can foster addiction to those states, then you've crossed the line into becoming the thing you are fighting.

Interestingly that could also be misinterpreted as being cold-blooded and calculated, which in the west is seen as much worse than  impulsive aggression. It's okay to practice self-defense in angry uncontrollable outbursts but don't dare be controlled and disciplined about it.

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Jennifer Armstrong 1 second ago

+S Fleurette Yes--interesting.  That complete fear and antagonism toward that which is controlled and disciplined, as if it smelt of inauthenticity and a dangerous capacity for efficacy.  I do come from a more ancient regime, so I do not experience this moderner's sensibility as my own.  I find the impulsive rage that moderners sometimes exhibit, (usually after they have failed to communicate effectively what they want from you, and so you haven't read their minds), to be disgusting to the extreme.

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Sunday 20 December 2015

Understanding Narcissistic Supply Pt. 2





Yeah, I have had a bad lifelong run with narcissists, but I have learned that I need to show them I am not the path of least resistance, just because I was initially weakened. With each subsequent attack I give them an increasingly stronger electric shock, so that not only they, but onlookers will learn not to abuse me.

Wednesday 16 December 2015

Vlog CCCLXXXVIII







But basically, bourgeois society (which is modern, liberal society) does not take into consideration that people are not necessarily rational adults. This kind of society is very, very weak in psychological astuteness. It tends to allow for the proliferation of these Nits. If society were to punish the behavior, after understanding what it was, then these kinds of people would be kept in check.


Saturday 12 December 2015

Vlog CCCLXXXIV Part 2 of 2 - YouTube

Vlog CCCLXXXIV Part 2 of 2 - YouTube





+Narcissist Free Some people seem to believe in psychological determinism, whether they put that in the context of biology or psychical forces. I'm really not of the view that there is anything strongly deterministic or watertight regarding how the children turn out when their parents are to varying degrees less than perfect. It is a very modern and recent notion that one is made the way one by authorities who have power over one. This in itself seems to be a self-fulfilling prophesy. But it is very dangerous and already very damaging, I think. Consider how it is that nowadays children tend not to learn very much from play, including the semi-dangerous forms of play which involve doing activities unsupervised by parents. This was how one used to learn to develop one's own character and what the limits of it might possibly be. Nowadays, there is the view that any time a child comes into contact with an adult, they are in fact being molded by this authority. It is also held that nothing more is required for the child than this -- to be molded by "good" authorities. But these children who grow up without genuine play end up becoming victims in some way, more often than not. Not all the molding forces and good intentions behind them in the world can prevent this from happening. Somehow reality itself sees to it that the products of society end up less than perfect.

After the shooting range: results & bulls' eyes

Vlog CCCLXXXIV Part 2 of 2 - YouTube

Vlog CCCLXXXIV Part 2 of 2 - YouTube: "Jennifer Armstrong 1 second ago
And to say something else: narcissists do not understand Nietzsche or George Bataille, but both of these produce paradigms that teach you exactly how to fight the paralysis of guilt and shame. You've got to get into a mindset where you can view these ideas as nuanced and paradoxical, because as you go off the beaten track of mindless conformity, you will get some alarm signals going off in your head. The point is to get inured to them. You can start to experience these alarms as something necessary, or even as a sign that one is actually going off the beaten track (away from narrow and reflexive conformity). In any case, I have found both these writers to be excellent in training you how to not succumb to manipulation that would use shame and guilt to shape your character.
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Yeah, I almost feel a little sorry for the narcs in trying to condition me and turn me into a victim, because I really do not have the conventional psychology they were relying on, to make me turn out that way. I have a deep layer of something else that cannot be harnessed. I also had a very controlled and specific sense of rage that I could in fact direct against those who engaged in cheap shenanigans. I have all the right stuff for killing narcs.


Narcissism: the metaphysical rebellion against TIME

Friday 11 December 2015

Vlog CCCLXXXIV Part 1 of 2





So of course, yes, the narc. tries to portray you as if you are making things up, and indeed the narc generally succeeds in doing this, because people are usually poor observers of humanity. However, it is also true that if people become infected with these narcissistic distortions and narcissistic beliefs (as I have often had happen to the people around me) they can also be put off their balance if it turns out you are not a pushover, as has been portrayed. (And this is also a very common experience for me.)

Thursday 10 December 2015

Vlog CCCLXXXIII - YouTube

Vlog CCCLXXXIII - YouTube:



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As for understanding "the question", I think this question is really how does one best battle through to make oneself whole again. That was always my question. The narcissist looks only at the various attempts and experiments to find the way though, and he (or she) interprets these experiments as point black failures, evidence of corruption within. That's because the narcissist does not see the hope and that knowledge is being accrued. The narcissist is a literalist and in a deep sense, a materialist, who observes only the short-term literal and material reality, but has no cognitive power to recognize the development of character over time, or the fact that the human spirit is not overcome by short-term set-backs.

Wednesday 9 December 2015

"The computer room"

Philosophical efficacy, adventure, violence and sayonara - YouTube

Philosophical efficacy, adventure, violence and sayonara - YouTubeAntistar211 33 minutes ago · LINKED COMMENT


I enjoy a great number of your videos. I have come across number of interesting youtubers in my time and you are defintly one of the most interesting. I think the first time I came across your channel was when I noticed one of your videos in the recommended section. I had just watched a video on Nietzsche and Thus Spoke Zarathustra and noticed a video you had made on Zarathustra. It was one of the videos on Zarathustra in which you wear a pair of spectles with a black rim and the video is in black and white. After watching this video I subscribed to your channel. After looking through your videos and channel infomation, and finding out that you were from Africa and more specifically Rhodesia, I was really interested. I find Africa intesting. It seems to be overlooked as opossed to most other places in the world and the fact that you are of European decent and grew up there in a cutlture that was before the age of moderntity to add to the layer of interest.

Unfortunately I do not always have the time to think over all the the stuff that you talk about in your videos and I have watched sone of your videos more than a few times in the past more than once. I pick up on some of the more esoteric points that you make in your videos that others seem to miss, though I do not want to speak to soon just in case I have got the wrong end of the stick. You have said in one of your more recent videos that you have difficulty speaking with people from different cultures since they often time take a different meaning from what you say. It is a shame since an element of your thought might help. Some element of colonial thinking, an element of Rhodesia, an element of Africa might help people.

+Antistar211 Thank you so much.
I think the main difference between myself and modern people is that I come from a culture and mindset of austerity. I do believe that is the fundamental difference. Because when I speak, no matter if I am joking to make light of a bad situation, or reflecting, or reporting on what I know, I do not waste words. I do mean my words to ward of the bad and to invite the good, and I will back up every word I say. On the other hands, moderners think I really do not mean what I say, and because they are themselves are generally lacking in a sense of historical context, and may also lack the necessary feeling of internal discipline that growing up in austere circumstances instils, they take too much of what I say for granted, or imagine I am wasting my words, or that I wont stand behind every word I say (sometimes to the point of what seems like death in some regards or at least something very extreme). There is a different feeling-sensation the contemporary people carry around with them, which is more akin to 'easy come, easy go', the mindset of a throwaway society. If listeners were to try to take in my meanings using that attitudinal stance as their lens to see through, I have no doubt that they would understand nothing of what I have to say, or failing that, they would understand almost the opposite, which is that I am lamenting on something that ought to just have been thrown away. I find that this modern attitidunal stance is the main barrier to my being able to get my point across.

Tuesday 8 December 2015

Vlog CCCLXXXI





The estoric side of all of this can be found in Nietzsche's writing. Nietzsche is often viewed as a narcissist himself, but the fact is he wanted to use a combination of strong will and wholeness to overcome the social and political entrenchment of malignant narcissism. What narcissists have is strong will, but they totally lack the wholeness that would make them healthy and happy. Lack of wholeness breeds "ressentiment", which is malignancy in the political and social spheres.

Monday 7 December 2015

Narcissist / psychopath





I grew up with extreme emotional violence. My father used to suppose that I was undermining him simply because of my gender. When I was only just a teen, he accused me of staring at a guy at his work party and undermining my father with my attempt to seduce him. (I am from an extremely conservative family and I had no notion of sexuality, or any interest in it at that time.) This extreme level of projection on his part made me emotionally repressed and reserved.
Since before I became an adult, I had a narcissist overshadowing my existence. Whatever my needs were, these were not considered important. I was not given the tools to survive in life and when I was severely bullied in the workplace, my father once again made it about him -- as if I had brought great shame on the family.
Everybody I have turned to has not believed me, and the usual pattern is that they have made it all about them.
I've never seen any shame on the part of anyone.
I know that the worse things became for me, the more I was kicked.

Sunday 6 December 2015

Response: "Yay or Nay NFree, Coopers, Mandrake, Dr Sam" - Narcissism & Sanctimonious Judgement - YouTube

Response: "Yay or Nay NFree, Coopers, Mandrake, Dr Sam" - Narcissism & Sanctimonious Judgement - YouTube

I'm very sympathetic. I have also asserted the policy that if you dislike something I have done, you need to be able to articulate a reason. Otherwise, you get a bunch of people marking you up and down depending on what their nursery school teacher told them about proper behaviour, or what their protestant preacher told them about "God". It gets very boring after a while to go through one's videos and pretty much find an outline of the hokey value systems that many people embrace in terms of what they vote "up" or "down". And of course they are going to vote something "up" if they feel it is touchy-feely, or if they feel "helped". But the resistance to taking in new information, which is also indicated in the ratings, is astonishing.

Saturday 5 December 2015

Vlog CCCLXXVIII





It was weird because in my original abusive workplace (where I went from out of the rightwing fireplace into the leftwing fire), they were always so moralistic and concerned that someone of my ilk (African) might be taking Australian jobs or bearing upon the system -- BUT, whereas I was prepared to work humbly and diligently, they gave me a physical illness that pushed me onto welfare. They really had no concern for the values they ostensibly espoused. And nor did my right-wing family.


Vlog CCCLXXVII - YouTube

Vlog CCCLXXVII - YouTubeEcceSignumRex 15 hours ago

What you're mentioning at 17:50 - - by letting a narc ''know'' - i.e., JUST talking about it - - what your 'weak spots' are .... there's an entire world of anti-narc-baiting there ... being able to use them to YOUR benefit only on the condition that they're the useless shit-bags they are... Since they never stop - point them at things in a manner that serves your own ''higher purpose'' - and completely defeats them...
+EcceSignumRex I think a useful job the narcs can have is working you over your weak spots. It's like in boxing. If you want to improve, you really do need to work on your flaws. Therefore I never have had any deep qualms about revealing my "weak spots" to narcs, either real or imagined. If they start attacking me on those, I can really improve, to the point that those spots don't exist anymore.

Cultural barriers to objectivity