Tuesday 30 June 2015
The authoritarian character and the real psychology of victimhood
In modernity, nobody understands our old-fashioned type of character, but it was a product of history and of politics. What passes for psychology in contemporary life is a denial of the important features of history and politics, which are key components that make up any particular character type.
Monday 29 June 2015
The schizoid (African) type as a misfit for Freudian psychology
Normal in contemporary (bourgeois) society was hardly normal for me growing up as the nuclear family was not the fundamental political and social unit. It was just one of many. I consider myself very lucky to have been able to escape parental overfamiliarity and thus escape Freudian dynamics during my youth. After leaving my country of origin, my fortunes changed very much for the worse.
Sunday 28 June 2015
Narcissistic (Western) clashes with a schizoid communication style
Diametrically opposite reasons for communication lead to cultural misinterpretations. For the schizoid type, communication is a nicety, which takes us out of themselves. For the narcissistic type, communication works as a defence against being known too deeply and works a power ploy. Communication, for a narcissistic type, involves projecting an image of a false self.
Schizoid adaptations, African authoritarianism & US trolls
There may be poets who don't know it. And then there are the mechanical robots, their puppets and the saboteurs.
On a more serious note, it is very, very difficult for me to write manuscripts that even imply intense emotional content, even though I have been driven to do exactly that.
Saturday 27 June 2015
Friday 26 June 2015
Thursday 25 June 2015
How theological corrupts psychology
+Breakthrough Moment Thank you for your respectful understanding of my observations. in fact I think few people would be able to see what I have outlined, and I am glad you could see it and that this helped you.
Yes, sometimes all we really want from other people is a confirmation of what we have been though and that it is unfair. Just some straight, rather than bent talk, and some courage to face the plain facts.
In the end what I have given you here is all I can really give you, but if you do feel inclined, you ought to read Nietzsche's THUS SPOKE ZARATHUSTRA from the perspective of a new initiate into knowledge. He disguised his whole narrative in quasi-theological terms to get under the radar, but he is really addressing the sorts of issues we have just discussed, such as those having to do with the infiltration of theology into everything and the way that distorts psychological reality.
And it was Nietzsche who said that theology turns the whole of psychology upside-down.
I think the only reason why I became very focused on Nietzsche's critique, to try to understand it, was that I did orginally come from a much healthier society (in many ways), where people did actually address problems arising from adulthood in an adult way. Therefore, it has always been a puzzle to me why people in contemporary modern society can't seem to do that. It seems like the most obvious thing that one ought to address a problem at its source, and do so right away, without waiting for it to fester.
Because I found this lack of action by modern people so deeply disturbing , I kept on reading and questioning, until now I finally have filled in all the missing gaps of my knowledge.
My knowlege is more philosophical than psychological, because I don't think the narrow discipline of psychology addresses these issues effectively. It takes too much of our inheritance of theological views, that come down to us from the historical past, for granted. But it's these views that need to be corrected and overturned.
Anyway, I'm glad my comments helped.
Yes, sometimes all we really want from other people is a confirmation of what we have been though and that it is unfair. Just some straight, rather than bent talk, and some courage to face the plain facts.
In the end what I have given you here is all I can really give you, but if you do feel inclined, you ought to read Nietzsche's THUS SPOKE ZARATHUSTRA from the perspective of a new initiate into knowledge. He disguised his whole narrative in quasi-theological terms to get under the radar, but he is really addressing the sorts of issues we have just discussed, such as those having to do with the infiltration of theology into everything and the way that distorts psychological reality.
And it was Nietzsche who said that theology turns the whole of psychology upside-down.
I think the only reason why I became very focused on Nietzsche's critique, to try to understand it, was that I did orginally come from a much healthier society (in many ways), where people did actually address problems arising from adulthood in an adult way. Therefore, it has always been a puzzle to me why people in contemporary modern society can't seem to do that. It seems like the most obvious thing that one ought to address a problem at its source, and do so right away, without waiting for it to fester.
Because I found this lack of action by modern people so deeply disturbing , I kept on reading and questioning, until now I finally have filled in all the missing gaps of my knowledge.
My knowlege is more philosophical than psychological, because I don't think the narrow discipline of psychology addresses these issues effectively. It takes too much of our inheritance of theological views, that come down to us from the historical past, for granted. But it's these views that need to be corrected and overturned.
Anyway, I'm glad my comments helped.
Nietzsche's stance against the narcissistic scourge
Some hints from some of the great philosophy masters &
a somewhat rambling albeit subtle meditation.
Wednesday 24 June 2015
Vlog CXCII
Strangely, the manner you need to adopt when you are in a time of war can look, superficially, like that of the psychopath. There is a difference, though. The psychopath genuinely experiences no emotion, whereas those undergoing exposure to war do experience emotion, but learn to repress it. As I was brought up entirely during a time of war, I developed a rather schizoid disposition, at least on the surface of it, but underlying all this my emotions were boiling. I had no idea how to bring the emotional part of myself and the stoical part together, or (initially) that this was even necessary.
Despite the anguish and the tremendous effort it has taken over very many years to come together, I do have one capacity I retain, which is the ability to be tremendously emotionally controlled and stoical under pressure, if I really have to be. For very limited periods at a time, I can perhaps look and act roughly like a psychopath, although this measure is attained through emotional repression. I think that of all people I am more likely to survive the psychopath, if I can act quickly and in a focused way.
Tuesday 23 June 2015
identity labels
Well I don't think we are all just DNA -- not a biological equation. But in fact we do not always know what we are, and when we start to label we violate that which we intend to label. It becomes limited and restricted by our concept of it. It's a false epistemology to rely too heavily on labels, although sometimes labels can be invoked. (There's a sense in which people do arrange their sensibilities and commonalities according to existing labels.)
Right thinking
When I did my thesis and at the same time also came to a view about identity politics, I concluded that whereas embracing any sort of identity as a defining feature of oneself, or viewing others identities as defining features, led to a false epistemology (false their of knowledge), having a correct understanding of oneself in relation to the world, including is prevailing political dynamics, means that one will automatically have the correct degree of compassion to suit any situation. First get right with oneself, and then everything else falls into place.
Monday 22 June 2015
Gracias
Thanks for your remark Kwame E. Bidi. It''s good that you know some history and can point out a few facts to the rest of us. I don't take you to be the great-great-great grandson of Shaka Zulu, so your words are probably well-founded. In fact, you may have never lifted a knife to anybody's neck as far as I know, although personally I don't know all of your uncles. If you give me their full details and character references I will be able to check up on you and see if you are a realistic historian and whether we should trust you. As you may realize, all of my teachers have to be very, very carefully screened. No offence.
Identity politics
How many ways are there to explain to someone that I do not like identity politics being preached at me? I've had that going on for 30 years. Instead of preaching, people could ask questions about my actual experiences. Instead they preach, and when I interrupt their eternal discourse to offer observations of my own, they pronounce haughtily that I must have "a chip on my shoulder", despite my patience in allowing them a lot of room to preach.
Marechera typing
Certainly we were not "centuries" apart, but really quite close in many respects. I do think Americans need to revise their concepts of identity politics, as there are too many implicit assumptions about seeminly essential differences, that were really not so essential after all. My generation was closer to being Africanised than my parents were.
In any case, as the WHO has researched, "schizophrenia" in developing countries is not the same as in the industrialized West, as simply being and remaining in the community is often enough to facilitate a cure.
As for if I knew him personally --I did not. But for some reason I have a distinct impression of going through the city with my father and being drawn to someone sitting on the lawn in a central park, typing on his typewriter. I said to my father, "Let's go to talk to him!:and he said, "No, that is a crazy guy. We have to keep away." I'm still not sure if this happened, although I do remember feeling thwarted and defeated. My father does recollect seeing him typing.
As for if I knew him personally --I did not. But for some reason I have a distinct impression of going through the city with my father and being drawn to someone sitting on the lawn in a central park, typing on his typewriter. I said to my father, "Let's go to talk to him!:and he said, "No, that is a crazy guy. We have to keep away." I'm still not sure if this happened, although I do remember feeling thwarted and defeated. My father does recollect seeing him typing.
Sunday 21 June 2015
Dambudzo Marechera (again)
He's interesting indeed. The war in Rhodesia, and the subsequent regime change was extremely traumatic to all involved, but I do think that generally the blacks suffered worse than the whites from the war. Marechera had a genius level IQ but had a schizophrenic break in his mid-teens as he was doing his all-important 'O' level exams. These would either get him out of destitution or leave him there. Somehow he recovered from this psychotic break and went on to become a gifted writer, although even from his own perspective his gift came about through a detachment from reality, because he found reality had been too horrifying in his childhood. Nevertheless, he also developed to become an acute social and political observer, seeing that not all was right with the new Zimbabwe either.
As he and I had experienced similar historical traumas, I was able to learn a great deal from his superior thinking and writing, as to how to get back my sense of history and recapture my soul. I do think he wrote very bravely and with much naked honesty, rather than grinding a political axe too much. In the end he died destitute, after living eighteen months on the Harare streets. He suffered from HIV-related pneumonia. I do believe he lived his life as heroically as his circumstances would allow, even if sometimes he was not quite relating to reality.
As he and I had experienced similar historical traumas, I was able to learn a great deal from his superior thinking and writing, as to how to get back my sense of history and recapture my soul. I do think he wrote very bravely and with much naked honesty, rather than grinding a political axe too much. In the end he died destitute, after living eighteen months on the Harare streets. He suffered from HIV-related pneumonia. I do believe he lived his life as heroically as his circumstances would allow, even if sometimes he was not quite relating to reality.
Vlog CLXXXVII -Part 1 of 4
What I got from this is that it is a narcissistic ploy to promise your intended victim a great deal, to get them to fantasize about something infinite, which the narcissist does not fully articulate but leaves as a level of suggestion. This way the intended victim's own imagination is used against them, as the narcissist gradually begins to close off the available (real) options, to reel them in.
Dreams are like this
My recent dreams last night, before waking up:
The building is very far from modern. It's very similar to in the British TV drama, The Hour, in that it looks like the BBC news rooms from the 1950s. In the dream, I am on one side of the wall, and on the other side are steps descending into a stairwell. There's an old clock on the wall, which suddenly starts to sputter from its centre. Sparks fly out, and as I watch it, the middle of the clock suddenly bursts into orange flames. I try to press the buttons that will call the fire service, and try to smash the emergency glass. There are at least three antiquated machines, that I try to activate, by punching necessary buttons. Bloodlessly and stoic, a 1950s guy picks up the phone and says, "the police." He is notifying the police and not the fire brigade.
I quickly check and the fire has died in the centre of the clock. It's not an emergency any longer, but it could have been. The 1950s guy replaces the phone on its shoulder and says, "Replacement bulbs can only be obtained in Melbourne. We can't get them otherwise. Is anybody going to Melbourne today?"
In another dream, more disturbingly, I am wrestling with a much older woman. She suddenly takes pity on me and says, "What's wrong?"
I notice I have bandages to dress my chest, and one of my nipples has come off, much like a pimple might if you were to cover it in chemical fluid. I look and consider how unexpected it was that my nipple has slid off. At first I didn't notice, but then when I thought about it, that was what was missing. I find it under the bandage and try to restore it to its original position.
The building is very far from modern. It's very similar to in the British TV drama, The Hour, in that it looks like the BBC news rooms from the 1950s. In the dream, I am on one side of the wall, and on the other side are steps descending into a stairwell. There's an old clock on the wall, which suddenly starts to sputter from its centre. Sparks fly out, and as I watch it, the middle of the clock suddenly bursts into orange flames. I try to press the buttons that will call the fire service, and try to smash the emergency glass. There are at least three antiquated machines, that I try to activate, by punching necessary buttons. Bloodlessly and stoic, a 1950s guy picks up the phone and says, "the police." He is notifying the police and not the fire brigade.
I quickly check and the fire has died in the centre of the clock. It's not an emergency any longer, but it could have been. The 1950s guy replaces the phone on its shoulder and says, "Replacement bulbs can only be obtained in Melbourne. We can't get them otherwise. Is anybody going to Melbourne today?"
In another dream, more disturbingly, I am wrestling with a much older woman. She suddenly takes pity on me and says, "What's wrong?"
I notice I have bandages to dress my chest, and one of my nipples has come off, much like a pimple might if you were to cover it in chemical fluid. I look and consider how unexpected it was that my nipple has slid off. At first I didn't notice, but then when I thought about it, that was what was missing. I find it under the bandage and try to restore it to its original position.
Saturday 20 June 2015
Never to blame
I see the inculpability attitude of Yanks as having to do with the psychologically of projective identification. Apparently this starts in infancy and some people never grow out of it. The infant projects its shit onto its mother and says, "you deal with it -- or else I am angry at you!" Likewise contemporary Americans project their shit onto me and say, "You are not moral enough to my liking". But you have to look at their own culture and how disgusting they are.
On the value of adding order to one's own house
Westerners --not just Americans -- have been preaching at me about racism and trying to upbraid me about my morality for over thirty years. It doesn't end. Even when I posted my recent YouTube video exclaiming my horror and distancing myself from the actions of the little shit, some self-righteous bigoted remains of somebody's snot-filled nostril comes along and does a peculiar little dance about how I need to get my priorities right. Strangers declaim my suspicious moral status so as to unload their own disgusting behaviors off onto me and make them seem like mine. These are people who will not listen to a word I say, but whenever an American comes along to commit an atrocity, they will put themselves in the position of high court judges, finely determining where I do or do not fall short in my morality. I'm not an American. I didn't kill anyone. I don't owe any Americans constant installments of my compassion, but this common variety Western insists that I am the morally suspect one in all of this. That is a great way to make Americans themselves seem pure when they are wallowing in degeneration. Point the finger of blame, and make it seem as if my fine moral attunements are not quite right. It doesn't cross their mind that constantly bringing up a generation of murderers might be problematic in any way. No. They have to finely grade the levels of my compassion to give it a mark out of ten. What revolting high-handed moralists, who deserve all of my condemnation for not getting their own house in order.
Vlog CLXXXVI - Part 3 of 3
And I have had all of these used against me as well. My enemies always make a mistake with on thing -- that I am a survivor, and to have become so, I had to be utterly ruthless. Therefore I can still be ruthless. Another (and now I am offering my head on a plate), is that I cannot really be known from the point of view of Western psychology. I'm not hysterical at all. If you push me back into a regressive mode, for instance the mode that I adopted when I was two or three, or all the way through primary school, I'm more of a Stoic. I become very non-emotional under pressure -- but also lose my feeling for my fellow humans.
Friday 19 June 2015
If...
If people do not come to terms with history as an event of grey written upon grey, as Hegel would say, you end up getting mentally fucked up and projecting all the evil into the past and all the good into the future, and then to make it worse this little turd pops up who thinks the notions of evil are glamorous when they do not even represent historical reality.
Vlog CLXXXIV - Part 1 of 3
Some of this is stuff I've learned to do especially defensive fighting and non-reactive fighting. In the end I just find it depressing that Americans can make their own homicidal killers my problem, by demanding certain kinds of reactions from me and not other reactions (which may seem more natural), whilst trying to use guilt, shame and emotional blackmail to impose their agenda.
Neutralizing the "warrior auto-destruct sequence" with feminism
Both men and women deserve respect and being heard out. This video is to do with dealing with the auto-destruct sequence in one's mind once an authority has placed it there. This video is autobiographical but also has to do with an African variety of feminism and shamanic (transformative) feminism.
Thursday 18 June 2015
Wednesday 17 June 2015
Neutralizing the "warrior auto-destruct sequence" with feminism
Both men and women deserve respect and being heard out. This video is to do with dealing with the auto-destruct sequence in one's mind once an authority has placed it there. This video is autobiographical but also has to do with an African variety of feminism and shamanic (transformative) feminism.
Neutralizing the "warrior auto-destruct sequence" with feminism
Both men and women deserve respect and being heard out. This video is to do with dealing with the auto-destruct sequence in one's mind once an authority has placed it there. This video is autobiographical but also has to do with an African variety of feminism and shamanic (transformative) feminism.
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In the most extreme cases, we've all heard about the black widows who lure men with their soft, feminine seductive charms and then end up killing them.