I've never desired to "draw attention to myself"

When you go to war (against narcissistic abuse) don't expect a quick rec...

Surviving the shipwreck (when under narcissistic attack)

Rhodesia, extreme narcissistic injury and the stream of time (pt 2)

Rhodesia, extreme narcissistic injury and the stream of time (pt 2)

Cf.http://lyrics.wikia.com/Rome:One_Fire

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4WRnrLLFlc

ROME - One Fire (Live 06.04.13, Berlin, Bi Nuu)

Narcissism/ the fear of change Vs. the shamanic stream (pt 1)

Predatory attacks, and the use of the dialectical method under fire

On why do I do get under the skins of covert narcissists

Analysing the traces of a right-wing society

Do I (still) consider myself a Rhodesian? (identity under erasure 4)

Rhodesia

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Do you still identify as Rhodesian?

 Jennifer Armstrong

That would be very difficult for me to do, given those circumstances described in the video. It would have to be like reclaimed land. But psychological land is the hardest to reclaim. Supposing that everything you experienced up until the age of 15 was given the name, "Nazi Traitor". I wonder what you would do about it. Is it better to just proclaim that one was born at the age of 15, and start again, as if one had not had any experiences prior to that time? I tried that and I ended up with a rather schizoid and detached character, which couldn't emotionally relate to the present.

Political harrassment means landing on one's feet, but only just (identi...

Prior obliviousness to the narcissistic attitude or critique

Activate your two-track mind for archetypal experiences

Are you sure there two types, empaths and psychopaths?

When the spirit leaves the body....(right-wing capitulation)

Vlog CCXXX

It's strange how people nowadays seem to have less toleration for dogs being dogs, so that they do not endure difficult and retraining periods with them.  They don't understand the "nature" is rarely if ever totally fixed.  There is a lot of potential for adaptability and change in most instances.  It's only the really sick animals and humans that cannot change.

As you have been melted down, what will you become?

Analysing the traces of a right-wing society

Point of clarification to previous video

Moral tension of Rhodesian mentality fundamentally anti-narcissistic

Narcissistic supply and intellectual shamanism

How about embracing adult solutions for an adult society?

Was it all engineered? Identity-under-erasure 4

The logic of Western colonialism, furthered by postcolonial criticism?

MYTH IN PLACE OF POLITICAL NUANCE: Odysseus meets Polyphemus

Published on 16 Jul 2015

(parts 1 and 2) This is a two part series outlining how mythological practices replace normal human relations and deform them.

Odysseus' antagonism to colonialism is lacking in political nuance

This is a follow-on from the previous video.
I discuss how modern Westerners see recent Western colonialism.  They view it  not through a refined political lens but though the lens of myth.  This approach perpetuates psychological dynamics that avoid them having to relate realistically to the real material and psychological structures of the recent colonial past.

The prevailing cultural myth of Odysseus and Polyphemus

Vlog CCXIX

27 is interesting too.  Because of the very high level of authoritarianism in my character, I found this internal injunction to be the hardest one to transgress.  It was also the most important one for me to defy.  You have to bring to light the abuses of even the esteemed authorities, at least as a symbolic gesture of your own.  It's very important that the observing self (if we can imagine the self divided into two parts -- an active and observing component) can see that the active self is taking strong measures on its own behalf.  This builds self-esteem and mental strength to stand alone.

Grasping at the dialectics of 'specialness', in a narcissistic culture

Vlog CCXVII

I had two or three layers of my father's psyche to deal with.  In one part he saw me as his omnipotent mother who was being mean and casting him out into danger without any support.  On the other side he saw me as a representative of himself and his own personal failures, being kicked and booted around in life.  He desperately needed me to express the emotions of his alienation for him.  I had to express his response to all the negativity he had encountered in life  -- the psychological torment and anguish of it.  On another level he saw me as "emotion" as such, which is to say the feminine part of the stiff, masculine or soldiery ideal he had been brought up to embrace.  
Well, after his stroke I did help him to express himself in a much healthier fashion by narrating to me his memoirs.  Strangely, the manipulative and projective part of his brain was destroyed by the stroke and he became more linear, realistic in thought, as well as more gentle and uninhibited.  So I have all these disjointed vignettes, narrating his pain.

Was it all engineered? Identity-under-erasure 4

New to this planet? Identity politics/identity-under-erasure 3

IDENTITY UNDER ERASURE (1 & 2)

Vlog CCXV

To live through many centuries in one lifetime

The criminalizing of identity causes relationship disorders (part 2)

Identity under erasure leads to emotional disorders (part 1)

Avoid falling into the trap of psychological binaries and bifurcations

How to recognize the masochists around us

Escape from under the right-wing mentality and develop your subjectivity

Escape from under the right-wing mentality and develop your subjectivity

Narcissistic Rage.

Activate your two-track mind for archetypal experiences

Addendum: On archetypes and wisdom

Vlog CCVIX

Moving with the warrior and the Lucifer archetypes

Rome - The accidents of gesture

Escape the domain of narcissism though dynamic self-doubling

Anticlimax of any great human endeavour

Fretting

What is "the gender division"?

Example: The Rhodesian personality. Can we just relax into ourselves?

Update: On going camping and on knowing who one is