note to self

There is such a thing as a rigorous loss of control -- ie. in reference to the control that one part of oneself loses over another part of oneself, due to one's effort to change things around. Automatic writing as self-exploration fits here. The possiblity of a rigorous loss of control -- whereby one part of the self loses control of another part of the self -- already implies a multiplicity of the self. Object relations lends itself to such a perspective, whereas Freudian psychoanalysis, which deals with the person as a totality does not.