As those who are able to discipline themselves so as to obtain even a minor capacity of understanding of my blog posts will know, I come from an extremely right wing culture.
Therefore, nothing is more second nature to me than monitoring myself. I monitor my emotions; I monitor my reactions. Right now, I am monitoring my blood pressure. Nothing is more "second nature" to me than this alertness in relation to authoritarian disapprobation.
I'm an extremely subtle reader of it -- most of the time, reading it accurately, but occasionally overdoing the reaction in my zealousness. I end up reading something into a situation that isn't in fact there.
Blame this on the authoritarian nature of my upbringing. I'm capable of reading danger singles with extreme ease -- with inculcated ease. My "sixth sense', my intellectual peripheral vision, is par to none.
If nothing else, fighting is in my blood stream.
Second to that, is monitoring oneself -- the cost of living in an authoritarian culture. Day and night, monitoring oneself.
STAY SANE AND SAVAGE Gender activism, intellectual shamanism
Therefore, nothing is more second nature to me than monitoring myself. I monitor my emotions; I monitor my reactions. Right now, I am monitoring my blood pressure. Nothing is more "second nature" to me than this alertness in relation to authoritarian disapprobation.
I'm an extremely subtle reader of it -- most of the time, reading it accurately, but occasionally overdoing the reaction in my zealousness. I end up reading something into a situation that isn't in fact there.
Blame this on the authoritarian nature of my upbringing. I'm capable of reading danger singles with extreme ease -- with inculcated ease. My "sixth sense', my intellectual peripheral vision, is par to none.
If nothing else, fighting is in my blood stream.
Second to that, is monitoring oneself -- the cost of living in an authoritarian culture. Day and night, monitoring oneself.
STAY SANE AND SAVAGE Gender activism, intellectual shamanism
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