I find Bataille's spiritual remedy to be good. One has to develop a very strong ego until the point that one sees through everything so much that one no longer needs to put up psychological, economic and political barriers to defend the ego. The strong ego has no value in itself, but it enables you to see through all the ego tricks that people use to gain power, after a time. For me, it has taken nearly thirty years. You've got to fall for a lot of tricks to gain immunity to them. The strong ego enables you to rebuild and go forth anew. But then ultimately the whole idea of creating a persona or identity rather than being your natural self seems ludicrous. What does one want from others anyway, that one has not already taken? The time comes to discard the limits of the ego for the sake of a purer experience of being. This is difficult. It takes a lot of confrontation with the weirdness within oneself and with one's fears. The "blood debt" video really marks the end of a very long journey for me, since I was finally able to articulate something I had not been able to express for twenty years.
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