Wednesday 6 November 2013

Falling faster

The principle governing shamanic writing is this:  If you do not allow the book to do some violence to your mind, you haven't even engaged with it.  The shamanic work tells you your limits, but it will also extend you beyond your normal range.   You have to want it, very, very much.

When we think of who we are, we don't need to talk about it, we just know it, but this level of knowing is uninteresting.   You can only talk about yourself as a discrete entity because you have accepted limits.  It gets boring very quickly.  In Judeo-Christian cultures, women have accepted the limit of being defined by their emotionality.  Men accept the limit of being the rational one.  It gets boring quickly, like hearing Americans go on and on about themselves.

To have a clear sense of self-identity merely means you have been more cowardly in life than most.   "I know I'm not the sort of person who goes out to meet a dragon.  I'm just an emotional lady," says the woman still waiting for her prince.   But Christian culture will applaud her for knowing who she is.   She's all wrapped up inside herself, but that is a good thing.   We find it quite unthreatening.   She's going to eat and pray and love and taste some shamanism Lite, but we don't mind it as she's still (only) a lady.

To pull the rug out from underneath oneself is something completely different.  Marechera built many juddering plunges into his writing because he wanted to.   It's interesting how Christian striving is always upward and onward.  Shamanism lets you fall and is quite callous.

That which you cannot teach to fly teach to fall faster.   I'm so emotional, I need smelling salts for that one.

The hypocrisy of Christian culture is in claiming to know what it claims to know, when all its grasped at are tautologies.  Also it denies its own violence -- it needs Jesus Christ as a sacrificial victim for the sins of all mankind but won't front up to take responsibility for the murder.   It's psychologically incontinent and satisfied to passively accept the benefits for causing God's demise whilst blaming others.  Just don't let the violence of your own misdeeds reach you in any way.

Christian innocence is a state of remaining locked within one's being.   I Yam what I Yam.   But it is phony toughness.  They let others fight their battles for them.

I let the platform of my own securities give way and I fall faster into blackness.   Death alone gives me a way out.   But I am okay with that -- and happy, too, to let the Christians climb. This falling is like flying since my feet don't even touch the ground.

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